i don't wanna know

new beginning, new chapter.

unfortunately, but waiting for some new things to happen.

can't live the past, need to go forward.

and we'll see what happens.

i let it go. let him go and let me go.

 

one step away

 

the last contact. the last chance. the last thing.

from maximally tomorrow - i will let go.

all the fucking way.

it won't be easy. but after all this time i need a relief.

 and need to let go you and let go me.

accept hurtful things and leave it all.

water from my eyes

i am left alone again. over and over again.

i am rejected as something not worthful even to meet with.

the only thing i can feel is distress and pain. and i don't want to feel anything no more.

the hope dies so rapidly. everything always crushes down.

and i have nothing to even wish for. nothing wild to experience.

nothing's going to be alright. and i don't want to take a part in such reality. 

i am just alone again.

nothing really matters anymore

 

 the truth always hit me with the speed of insentience.

why it has to be so awful. why i'm always something aloof.

never in the firts place. never important. others are. i guess.

i can't stand watching these situations, but i can't stand living without.

i always think that nothing's going to surprise me, and actually it surprises every time.

 i'm in between, sad, rejected and going nowhere.