water from my eyes

i am left alone again. over and over again.

i am rejected as something not worthful even to meet with.

the only thing i can feel is distress and pain. and i don't want to feel anything no more.

the hope dies so rapidly. everything always crushes down.

and i have nothing to even wish for. nothing wild to experience.

nothing's going to be alright. and i don't want to take a part in such reality. 

i am just alone again.

nothing really matters anymore

 

 the truth always hit me with the speed of insentience.

why it has to be so awful. why i'm always something aloof.

never in the firts place. never important. others are. i guess.

i can't stand watching these situations, but i can't stand living without.

i always think that nothing's going to surprise me, and actually it surprises every time.

 i'm in between, sad, rejected and going nowhere.

 

 

 

and the song it spins no more

 

i can't live with that longing. i miss everyday.

and worst part it is, that it will never happen again.

i don't want people, i don't want places and even art.

as long as we stay so far apart.

nothing really matters and nothing will. 

nothing to calm down the longing.

i only want to cry, 'cause most dreams left me, 

and the other i don't need or want.

 

nothing, need

 

nothing really matters. i can't think of any thing.

no future

 

i can't take it. i love too much.

and i'm getting nothing back. nothing anymore.

and the worst part is that nothing will change.

and if - only for worse. i don't know words anymore.

and i don't want to be around here too.

there is nothing more for me and i don't want any of this.

just want to lay down and die.

 

snow

 

 so empty and not capable of fill with love again.

there must be something in the way i feel

 

can't take it, can't imagine.

i don't want to participate in any of this.