polaroid shots

i have enough. of all those people.

from now i'm gonna get away from them, shut myself down

'cause i don't need and not want to care and try.

nothing from me anymore.

i will only give love to myself.

no more talking and responding.

tired of them and want to cut off.

all cords i guess.

silence is my word now.

slow drug in the morning

 

the world has a little bit changed from actually yesterday.
maybe not the world, but me in it.
but it's just a small change and i don't know what will happen next.

but probably only some good things.

let's see. 

anytime and anywhere i have myself.

and i don't must anything. i am free and choose things for myself.

and i can stop everything in one moment.

it's for me, remember that.

what is not, it's not a big deal.

you come through

everything is tough and hurtful when to think of it.

people aren't what they were - what actually is obvious.

but always the little part of me believes that some will stay.

but they are not. so i only can live by myself.

 

tegel see

 

i need to give some space. give some time.

to me and to others.

time doesn't heal, but space is important.

just take some breaths.

berlin memories

 

i'm just in the place i've always been.

on my own, in my room, with a tea and writing posts, listening to music.

i still need to focus on my three aims, one of which is losing weight!

it's not that easy, but i hope slowly, slowly and it will work out.

as it comes to people, they are the most changable things in life.

so i need to get used to it and don't expect anything, don't even count on friends.

it's impossible. and now i need to forget about the future. 

memories will always stay with me, at the tiny moments - feeling and accidents were real.

today is quite a chill day. maybe finally without going out.

again i need to think through all the things i eat and should eat, and make a list.

just music, working on body and thinking about moving out.

nothing else matters as nothing's more shocking anymore.

text book

  

i'm just to too tired of people who claim to be friends.

 i don't need anyone and i don't want to take a part in any of this.

i might go alone through everything. i am myself best friend.

wake up young man

 

 

i am all alone, only for myself.

need to accept that and continue to live calmly for me.

focus on arts, focus on music, on exploring myself.

no one is around, people are changing, relationships too.